The biggest lesson I’ve learned form motherhood is that I can’t be selfish. Sure, we’re told “Take care of yourself so you can take care of others,” but that’s not what I’m talking about. If you’ve been reading this blog, you’ve noticed nothing has changed in awhile. Perhaps I’ve been selfish…. that’s another blog entry.

The deal is this:  my life has been in a complete upheaval because through the loving advice of friends and church, I have come to realize my husband and I need to do what’s best for the children. In this case, that means not worrying that we’ve bought a house or that I have a job I absolutely love or that this town provides an environment that is great for raising kids. My kids need their dad.

Dad is in the military and our five-year plan was for me to settle here while he finishes out his career. The problems started when one tour of Iraq turned into two and he’s not been a part of their lives — up close and personal — for more than three years now. Boys need their dad.

So, we’re stepping out on faith and adhering to what we believe is God’s plan. The children and I are moving to be with dad at his next duty station. He’ll provide a renter for the house, if that is His plan. He’ll provide me a new job, if that is His plan. He’ll surround us with neighbors and church friends to love our children like they’ve been loved here. And we can always come back to this town.. but in God’s time, not ours.

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